(Note: This writing is in response to an inquiry. We welcome inquiries as they are often impetus for further discussion.)
The Question: What does one do if one is stuck in the “nothingness” of apathy?
The Answer: Nothing…………that’s right, nothing.
Well, first of all, pat yourself on the back. True apathy is a road sign on the journey of the spiritual aspirant. To reach a point of true apathy, one has done some serious spiritual work, examining one’s beliefs, deeds and general perspective on anything and everything. Only when one approaches an understanding that it is the individual who assigns meaning and important to objects and events can the question be raised, “why bother?”…true apathy.
When one reaches this point in the journey it is important, no, it is imperative that one be as truthful as is possible with self. Therefore, do not “pretend” anything. If you find yourself in the state of “nothingness” do not try to “act” your way into another state, and do not deny where you are. Just explore every thought and feeling you have.
We will be discussing “mechanisms” of energy a bit later, but this it a perfect point of development to just watch and feel what is going on in your mind and in your bodies – mental, emotional, spiritual and physical. As you attune yourself to letting yourself follow the energy you may be in for a surprise. You might not be as apathetic as you think you are. You may very well find pockets of abject anger, fear, frustration, love, attachment, vehement judgments, etc. And, behind these emotional pockets will be deeply embedded belief systems and thought processes to which you are really, REALLY attached. As the energy moves around and hits these pockets, you may begin to feel like a spiritual pinball game.
Apathy is a trick behind which the Spiritual Ego hides. By convincing you that you “don’t give a damn” the ego can hide just how ferociously it is holding onto limited thought patterns and beliefs. When such “ah-ha” moments happen, simply, quietly, allow yourself to look at what has been unearthed and as you examine what you find ask yourself, “Is this the truth? Who says? What if it is not the truth? Who would I be if I didn’t believe this?” And then, quietly release the limited thought/belief that has kept you bound and separated from your true Self.
During this time, focus on practicing the 4th Agreement – Always Do Your Best. Apply yourself to each endeavor as best you can, realizing that some days are better than others. Be as present in the Now as you can; again, some days are better than others. Refrain from having whatever you are doing “mean” ANYTHING – about you, who or what you are, or about life in general. By all means, do not assign values of good or bad or best or worst to anything. Just BE with what you are doing.
Slowly, but surely, you will begin to feel the energies of the Universe move in and through you. Your so-called apathy will have disappeared when you were not looking and you will find that Joy is the natural state intended for human Beings on the journey back to Source.